for so many things.
I am thankful for this day off work and time to spend with my growing daughter. I can't believe how big she is and how fast the time is going. Just last night, Chris and I were talking about how the time is flying before our eyes and how precious this time having her at home truly is. In just 2 1/2 short years, she will be off to school during the day and we will wonder where the "early years" went. Call us sentimental, but we really do try to remind ourselves everyday that this time, this day, is fragile and won't come again. I never want to wish it away with "I can't wait until" or "If only she would". We know how lucky we are to have such a sweet, creative, thoughtful, and loving, little girl like our Ella, and getting to spend the whole day with her is a blessing and a joy.
Just this morning, we went to Kroger- one we had never been to before- and they had the child carts- something Ella had never seen. What fun it was watching her pretend to be a mommy and push that little cart around and discuss things with me as she chose items off the shelves. She kept almost running into things (and people), but she would say, "Oh, excuse me!" and just keep going. She had the sweetest, proudest smile on her face and I couldn't help but just love watching her! It once again hit me what a huge, important job I have to teach her about the world and help mold her into someone who is caring, polite, and kind to others. I'm slightly overwhelmed that God has trusted me with so much responsibility and I pray for strength and guidance to live up to the task.
Secondly, I am thankful for this new life growing inside me- this little boy who kicks and rolls and flips at all hours of the day. Perhaps more so this second time around, I am constantly awed by the knowledge that what I'm feeling inside is our son, an entirely new yet complete person, with distinct characteristics and a personality all his own. I wonder what color his eyes will be and will he have his Daddy's smile. Will he have wild, wavy hair like his sister and a fiesty temper to match. Will he like fast cars and skateboards like his cousin Payton, or will he be wild for tractors like his cousin Carson. I learned with Ella to have no particular assumptions, because nothing has ever been as I expected. That's the beauty of it. I have been surprised at every corner by the reality of who Ella is and that has been far greater and much sweeter than anything I could ever have imagined. I know it will be no less wonderful with this child. I feel extremely blessed to have been given this gift, this opportunity to bring another child into this world. What a miracle life is and what a good and generous God we serve!